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Hello All. I'll start by saying thank you to those of you who care. I have had a lot of fun in this community and most of it is thanks to the relationships I've developed over the years. I can confidently say that without this mod and the people who play/create it, my life would be substantially less memorable. So for that, I thank you all so much!
So why am I leaving? It has nothing to do with the game, the developers, or the players. I started playing this game almost four years ago. All I've wanted to do is see the game succeed. I've participated as a beta tester, and a moderator to the forums and the Discord server. I've actively tried to engage the community and even started a small clan to get together with like minded individuals who want to improve the state of the game's fanbase. This was definitely the hardest part of my MBII career (lol) .
I received massive amounts of hate directly and indirectly. Sometimes from other respected members of the community, sometimes from entire clans, but I never let it get to me. I believe that the best way to earn respect is to be respectful. Anyways. FTG and it's members have been so supportive of me not just in MBII but in my personal life as well. So let me get to the part that's important.
I've been messed up for a really long time. I was clinically diagnosed with depression in 2015. I have been prescribed many anti-depressants to no avail. They don't seem to have any effect on my system according to my doctor. I don't like blaming things, but because of this I turned to alcohol. I never really ever thought I'd get to the point where my mild drinking would turn to alcoholism, but here I am.
I don't like the state of life I'm in. I don't like the person I am. I reached my lowest point this week, and really don't think it's worth talking about. I stopped playing the game consistently and communicating with my clan members. I stopped posting on the forums. I stopped attending beta tests, and I stopped paying for the FTG website. Most of this inactivity was due to moving to a full time position at my job, and so the only free time I had was spent drinking. I don't really want to sit here and waste resources.
So my break... I will return, I just don' t know when. I want to work on my personal life a bit more. I want to get sober. So for now, I'm resigning from the beta testers, and as a MBII. I'll still be active on Discord, and I'll login every now and then to respond to reports on the forums and do basic moderation. As for FTG, Ill still be in the official FTG Discord, and it will remain up, but the clan is officially disbanded. I'll message Circa and have FTG removed from the JKHub Bar. I'll continue to respond to messages on here when I'm able to log on, but will not be making posts unless necessary for moderation. This will be the last post I'm responding to. I wish you all the best, and I can't wait to see what's changed when I come back. Thanks for reading this. Thanks for the positive messages that some of you sent to me. I really do appreciate them. I don't like writing huge posts like this, so I'll just leave it here. If you have any questions feel free to ask. Thanks so much for all the fun!
So why am I leaving? It has nothing to do with the game, the developers, or the players. I started playing this game almost four years ago. All I've wanted to do is see the game succeed. I've participated as a beta tester, and a moderator to the forums and the Discord server. I've actively tried to engage the community and even started a small clan to get together with like minded individuals who want to improve the state of the game's fanbase. This was definitely the hardest part of my MBII career (lol) .
I received massive amounts of hate directly and indirectly. Sometimes from other respected members of the community, sometimes from entire clans, but I never let it get to me. I believe that the best way to earn respect is to be respectful. Anyways. FTG and it's members have been so supportive of me not just in MBII but in my personal life as well. So let me get to the part that's important.
I've been messed up for a really long time. I was clinically diagnosed with depression in 2015. I have been prescribed many anti-depressants to no avail. They don't seem to have any effect on my system according to my doctor. I don't like blaming things, but because of this I turned to alcohol. I never really ever thought I'd get to the point where my mild drinking would turn to alcoholism, but here I am.
I don't like the state of life I'm in. I don't like the person I am. I reached my lowest point this week, and really don't think it's worth talking about. I stopped playing the game consistently and communicating with my clan members. I stopped posting on the forums. I stopped attending beta tests, and I stopped paying for the FTG website. Most of this inactivity was due to moving to a full time position at my job, and so the only free time I had was spent drinking. I don't really want to sit here and waste resources.
So my break... I will return, I just don' t know when. I want to work on my personal life a bit more. I want to get sober. So for now, I'm resigning from the beta testers, and as a MBII. I'll still be active on Discord, and I'll login every now and then to respond to reports on the forums and do basic moderation. As for FTG, Ill still be in the official FTG Discord, and it will remain up, but the clan is officially disbanded. I'll message Circa and have FTG removed from the JKHub Bar. I'll continue to respond to messages on here when I'm able to log on, but will not be making posts unless necessary for moderation. This will be the last post I'm responding to. I wish you all the best, and I can't wait to see what's changed when I come back. Thanks for reading this. Thanks for the positive messages that some of you sent to me. I really do appreciate them. I don't like writing huge posts like this, so I'll just leave it here. If you have any questions feel free to ask. Thanks so much for all the fun!
, take your time buddy. I really appreciate you. Hope shit gets better and I'll text you every now and then to check up on you.
